April 25, 2004

• [#64] Had A Great Weekend!

  
  

  Put a new song on the background but dun know if you can hear it. Can somebody tell me? Found that in a bar two weeks ago and just got the name from the bar tender yesterday! Guess it's a Russian piano player and it's getting big now in UK. (See link below) Will try to find the whole song later.

  
  

  I'm going to Karaoke too much recently! Have to let my voice rest! Rehearsals this weekend went great and after that we went out and OMG, there was just so much mischief happening between my friends and I could't even believe that I have friends like this I have taken fotos how they enjoyed themselves in Dragon, a quite *dark* dancing place, just in case they forgot the next day or deny it, hehe. Due to the rank of the fotos, I prefer not to show it here coz I know some readers are not old enough to be legal to see them yet

  
  

  I've been out a lot recently and the number of guys who want to date me or at least take me home, added up to a pretty 'noticable' degree. But I'm shutting my door as usual and giving no one a chance or in another word, being stupid. The horrible thing is, whenever they knew what my trouble is, they preach! Of course it's always the blah blah blah about moving on with your life, etc. It was ok in the beginning that I still think I can pretend that I'm listening. Later whenever some lesson starts I just wanna say Talk To You Later! Also I wanna tell them that look, I was quite fucked up in my first relationship and dun want to let anything happen now and you just have to respect that. Moving on with one's life is pretty good but life can't always be about moving on, otherwise it must be pretty messy! I'm not sure what I'm looking for now but I know what I DON'T want. And what's wrong about taking my time? It's been more than half a year but I still feel that we just broke up a few weeks ago. It's been over 2 or 3 weeks that he hadn't written me a single word or give me a single call. I feel so strange, think he does too but he's with other people somehow and at least won't be so lonely. I'm not even used to that! I know I'm lonely inside but just dun feel right or ready to start anything with anyone. It's now still as painful as ever and sometimes even worse. I won't mind at all if people want to have a laugh over that coz that's me and that's always been me. If I could change, I would've changed long time ago and that's not me any more...so what's fun in that!?

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