[#35] Minority Report

Was watching X-MEN 2 again yesterday with my dorm-mates...and almost twice! I just love this movie and I think 2 is even made better than 1! Everything is good in this movie, story, acting, actors/tresses, special effects, music...and most importantly, well at least it is to me, this is all about Minority!

I first watched this movie in cinema, though it was so cool. But now when I watched it agian, it's interesting to find out that I discovered more this time. I can't help thinking the minorities in this movie are exactly the true shadow of what it is like in real life. But the only difference is, in the movie, each individual of the minority is so powerful.

I begin to wonder: Will I ever realize that if I were not gay? Maybe the answer is NO.

When that cute Bobby a.k.a. ICEMAN, went home with other X-mates, his family saw all these weird people in the room and looked confused. 'This is...Professor Logan.', Bobby said, 'There is something I need to tell you...'  Then they sat down and had this conversation:

Mom: So uh...when did you fist find out that you were a ... a...

Pyro: (playing with the Zippo, making noise) A mutant?             

Mom: (looking at Pyro) Would you cut that out? (Pyro closed the lighter)

Dad: You have to understand. We thought Bobby was going to a school for the gifted...

Rogue: Bobby is gifted!

Dad: We know that. We just didn't realize that...

Mom: We still love you Bobby! It's just this...mutant problem is a little...

Logan: What mutant problem?

Mom: (looking at Logan)...complicated...

Dad: What exactly are you a professor of Mr. Logan?

Logan: Art!

... ... (After Bobby turned mom's coffee into ice, Ronny, his brother ran out to call the police)

Mom: Bobby... Have you tried...not being a mutant?

Now I almost laughed out. A roomfull of people, straight people exept me, were watching but no one would ever think that this is such a perfect coming out dialogue for gay people too. The mother's lines are perfect lines for tens of thousands of mothers in the world who just heard their son and daughters coming out to them. 'Have you ever tried...not being gay?' Pretty clever movie, isn't it!?

Many people here, especially here in Japan. or say Asia, won't see this movie with the context of minority issue, or without knowing that this movie or the original comics was more or less related to the anti-discrimination movements in 1963.

When I told the above to my friend, he asked me after a good laugh: Do you always think so much when you watch a movie??? I said: No if I were not gay

Oh by the way, did you notic this place where you can make your entry at Xanga, is called X-tools? How cool is that!

 

[#34] Parents Away

You know, I haven't felt being so dumb and useless for a while...(maybe not since last time I swallowed a plum core?)

 I was late today for my parents' departure, oversleeping! And what's more, I felt it was strange that I didn't set an alerm last night...but as I was running my bubble-butt off towards the hotel my parents stayed last night, I panicked coz I started remembering that turning-off-alerm action: OMG, I was woken up once by the alerm, but switched it off...without realizing that I set that damn thing for something important today! Yes, to be more acurate, I remembered that my brain was totally blank at that time and was even angry at that alerm spoiled my dream. :'Shut Uuuup!'... Then I switched it off and went on sleep.

I hadn't even been late for any pointless tests in my university! Maybe it's just because I hadn't slept for days before last night so I'm too tired or is this...pre-mature aging?

I finally woke up and realized I was late because my mom called...at the time I was supposed to be there. Anyway, I ran and ran and made it eventually. They had lots of luggage so it is a son's duty to carry them so they didn't have to call a cab for just 5 minutes walk to the station. We actually had plenty of time and their friend was there too, a famous TV person in Japan...(tho I haven't seen her program yet) so we chatted away.. Then the bus came, hugs hugs, off they went.

I was glad that it was such a beautiful day today. The sunshine and the warmth it brought! With they had a nice trip BTW, the foto is my mom, she doesn't look 55, does she, heehee

BTW, thanks for the comments from ya all!

[#34] War Is Over...

Did I use this title before? Yes I did...think I just love the way it sounds. What I really mean is: my tests are all finished...and I stayed up almost 30 hours (actually more counting the time I visited my parents afterwards) to finish writing my thesis and took a train ride over an hour as usual to turn it in. Well it was not even deadline but I just kinda want to get it done and get it out of my way.

Yes the finals are over, and I said bye to school in my heart as I handed in my thesis coz I'm gonna graduate soon and become a salary-man from April, and I'm even planning a trip to Europe in Feb...

But that's it! So strang that I dun even feel excited, or even feel a little bit released. After so much work had been done before the finals and thesis and now am I supposed to feel free and delighted? I'm a little confused coz I can't deny that I'm not feeling that way now.

Pressure? Well that was lots of pressure on me but now I finished with the tests...somehow the pressure should go down a little. But I'm still feeling weired.

My parents' departure? All the furniture they want to leave to me arrived, so my little dorm room was soon packed with stuff. I'm glad that I dun have to buy anything such as TV, microwave, toaster, fridge by myself after I found a new place and moved out of my dorm...which is going to be next month! This sounds like a quick 'move in, move out' tho I've been living in this dorm for 4 years. Today when I go visiting them after I finished arranging those furniture in the afternoon, they were sitting in the room waiting for me, a totally empty room without anything. It used to be the room I'm quite familia with (coz it's so small) but now every piece of furniture is either lying outside as a garbage or has come to my place. There was no light at all in the room before I turned the lights on so I could only see their shadows sitting in the dark. Maybe there were thinking about all these 7 years they spent in Japan? Of course I know that the most they'd be thinking about is me though. One of my friends said that I must be glad they are gone. Well I'm not. He said that because he knows I haven't coming out to my mom yet and I won't have peace if she comes bothering me with that coz she's suspecting things. But she's doing a lot better that before and if she wants to bother me, she can do it anywhere alike. Yet I'm not happy for them if they stay. It's too much hard work for my daddy who cured so many people but got so little rewards. Also my mom is the kind who enjoys friends' company and all that chat chat chat, however Japan became her prison because of the language problem. The sooner they get back to Shanghai, the better their life quality is...tho I know that the in terms of services, etc,  Japan is always the best in the world. So about their leaving, I basically don't feel that much, neither sentimental nor released.

...Or none of the above? And maybe that is the right answer? I dun know yet...but maybe also because I know that I'm gonna face the coming of a series of events soon and I'm simply feeling irritated? Anyway, one thing is for sure that I'm losing confidence in many things. For example, life, love, job or anything that is a noun (?) and how the hell I let that happen? I dun know that either...think I'll come up with a clearer reason when I find one. But hey what are you reading? This is private!

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By the way, just finished all the [24]s, season one...and I really LOVE it! No no no, I mean that [24], not the link below! Take care!

[#33] Yum Cha Buffet!

What a yummy day! I seldom got my ass out of bed so early during the day, like last Sunday, got dressed and went to Shinjuku, joined Jona, then joined another group of 14 people for this all you can eat Yum Cha lunch to celebrate Chinese New Year.

Those Yum Cha! No wonder it's called YUM cha... Just mentioned me of HongKong, where I had my first REAL Yum Cha experience...OMG, even I grew up in China but still I think I've never had such special stuff like that. Or maybe it's just the psychological wall that made me think that one can never taste real food unless you are at the place where it came  from? For example, in Japan, I would never say Chinese restaurants that opened by Japaese people sell Chinese food here ...though there are millions of them. The taste is just not right! Well it's not hard to explain, the materials are different, chickens are taken extremely good care of and so are the artificial vegetables... which I always think is a reason they lost their original wild flavors...So instead of Chinese, actually what's sold in the restaurants is a bunch of inventions of immitation, or different combination of food which should be called Japanese Food That Looks Like Chinese Food, which sounds much better...Oh I miss Shanghai so much now. (Foto: Me and The Vatrix

But the food we had that day was obviously handled by real HK people. Besides the food, what made me happy was the conversations, the non-stop joking laughing part! Such a pity that I couldn't join the 'after party' but hurried home to prepare the test on Monday (which was finished now!) so I said bye to everyone...

Put up a Josh Groban Player on the left side of my page so all Josh fans can click and play! Well the newest album isn't there yet and the sound quality isn't good enough though...but anyway it's Josh and I love every song in it! Enjoy:)

Got some sad news today. So I added a link of Angel Songs...think whenever angels had someone join them, their choirs turn more beautiful!

[#32] Happy Chinese New Year!!!

                               ''Me Love U Long Time!''

(Sorry everyone, dun have a picture of fireworks here...but USE YOUR OWN IMAGINATION! Haha)

[#31] Speaking Of Horror...

I have a test tomorrow, so see you later soon!

[#31] The Pink Cow Party

First snow this year in Tokyo! Yeah! Tonight I went to a friend's birthday party at a bar in Shibuya called The Pink Cow (hope you check out the website coz the logo: a damn stupid looking cow, is very cute and funny. Put your mouse on the cow's head on the homepage and let it spin!) and met a lot of friends that I haven't seen for a while and also got to know a lot of interesting people coz that was a whole group of stand-up comedians! Had a great time! I got there a little late because I just came from my parents' who are leaving Japan for good on 1 Feb. My mom had a lot to 'instruct' tonight that's why I was late for the party...

Yes my parents are leaving. finally, after 7 years being in Tokyo, through lots and lots of hesitation. I've heard them talk about leaving sooooo many times since when I first got to Japan four years ago and even my friends know that. 'Are they leaving again?' is what's always asked by my friends. But this time, guess it's the ultimate decision they made. I'll miss them a lot just like they'll miss me a lot too. I had lived by myself (meaning, not even living in the same country with my parents) for two years before. That was in college in Shanghai when my parents were already here in Japan. But that was different coz that was in my hometown, our base was there then. But this time, I'm not at 'home' but a different country and gonna be totally independent and doing everything on my own. They sure are gonna worry but they said it's good to have stayed (almost) until my graduation.

I have soooo much to talk about my mom and I but dun think I'll write about it now. I promise it's gonna be on my Xanga someday. Anyway, it's pretty late now and I have to get some sleep. Updated two entries made me feel a little tired now.

G'nite you all! Hugs^^^

[#30] Started Wednesday...finished Sunday!?

The company I'm going to work with this April just decided to put me into the Marketing Department! Woohoooo! That means I can skip a few years of the Sales position...at least I'm the first one did this in our company. I made my first jump before I entered the company? I was walking above the clouds! Hehe.

After the meeting, we had a party during which a Karaoke Contest was held. We newbies were all surprised coz we didn't know that before going! We, 4 new boys and girls was one group, and other groups were formed according to different departments...totally 4 groups. And it was such a surprise to find out that 2 guys in other different groups dressed in drag when they performed! I started to love my company more, hehe. Oh, and I got 10,000yen (about $100!) for just singing a little bit Chinese at the end of the song our group chose (which was a song that has both Japanese and Chinese version)! My boss loves me, yeah! ...actually everybody does...coz I'm sort of the only Gaijin(foreigner) employee-to-be in this company. And I have soooo much to expect on this company, think so do they on me too.

He won the first prize!

                                             

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By the way, it's been a week since my karaoke buddy Clark8 left Tokyo (Geez! That means I haven't updated for a week?) I've never hung out with someone who I can sing along with all the way down the streets here in Tokyo...that was non-stopping singing and thot people were pretty 'annoyed' by us...which was fun, LOL! But thank GOD that he's not here anymore coz he was gonna eat up all the dessert in Tokyo! So dangerous...I have to be the only Desser King (or Freak?) here!

And another thing (sin?). Yes, as the title speaks that I started writting this entry (the upper part) on Wednesday and was distracted by various things since then so I couldn't finish! Anyway, I'm back now and think I still have to disappear for a while later coz my last tests start from next Wednesday!

According to my fashion-instructor that OI ONE (Marui One) in Shibuya is on sale and has cheap DIESEL shoes for only $30.00! I went there earlier this week and found out that the shop was going to be out of the place soon, that's why the special sales were soooo cheap!  But most  shoes were gone by the time I got there coz they were too hot items to wait...however, still I got something of my size and walked away with two pairs in a huge bag. Look how lovely they are, I simply love the big 'D's on both sides! (Dun have foto of the other pair.) Also I got something later at another OI that my fashion-instructor would love to see next time I meet him... Well as he always says, you can't worry too much about the money you have to pay for fashion...(and a lot more comments like that). Well, I have spent so much recently (very much to me coz I NEVER bought myself anything like those before, let alone so many things in a short period of time. I mean even they were under $30.00!) but I have decided not to worry about it and will live on M&M chocolates only for the next month coz my wallet is empty now...haha. Of course you know that was a joke, coz I will also drink some tap water too!

 

[#29] ''REN-AI SOUDAN'' -- Love Consulting

W.T.H.!? This was already the 4th person that came to me and talked about 'Relationship Problems' within...say, 24 hours...is that possible??? Thanks for trusting me and I understand people have different troubles in terms of love, relationships, feelings or whatever...but this is the first time I had so many of the talks at a time and they all happened in the beginning of a new year! *sigh* But the point is, I know that during these 'consultings' I always can find something interesting(?) about...me.

A few days ago, at work (my part-time), when we finished a meeting and got back to the office room, the girl sits next to me in the office (well, she's over 30 but looks much younger, so I still call her a girl) whispered to me and asked me to do her a favour: she'd dial a number and then put me on the phone just to say F*CK U! I was like, Waooo, that must be fun! (Besides, I like her a lot coz she always says something that surprises me and everyone.) Then I told her to think it over again before she...no, in this case it's definitely ME, did anything stupid... even I had no clue what was going on AT ALL! But somehow I sensed that it had something to do with her boyfriend. She is Chinese and her boyfriend is British. I just met her bf during new year on the company's new year party. She lived in Canada for years so they speak English when they are together. So when she asked me to say that F-word in English, I assumed that it had something to do with her bf. But the funny thing is, she came to me coz I'm the only English speaker in the office besides her and...if she didn't trust me, I guess she could find someone else anyway: who needs to learn English if it's just those two words!?!?!?

So I asked:''Do you think that'll solve any problem?'' She said:''At least that'll make me feel better.''

 I said:''How did you know the person you asked me to say F*ck U to had seduced your boyfriend?''

She:'' Ya know a female's Six Sense is sometimes very accurate!...But how did you know I think she seduced my bf?''

''Well I think that must be my male's Six Sense then...''

Then she started this consulting just like I was her personal doctor...and yes this poor girl is thinking that her bf is having an affair...so I asked: ''How can you be so sure?'' She said:'' I've seen handy phone e-mails between him and that woman and I'm quite sure now something is going on coz the e-mails were all about I MISS U, I MISS U TOO kinda stuff.''

Before I start feeling sorry for her, I was a little surprised first...for I have been in such a similar situation and I know how she felt when she saw those e-mails! (The difference is I already knew before I saw those kinda e-mails...) Then I asked her if her bf knows that she knew already, she said no, but she wondered if she should tell her bf that she has seen the mails and knew quite 'a lot' now...I said NO because if, just say if there's nothing between them, you are gonna look really stupid and have to burden the dirty name of 'peeping into other people's privacy', which is not going to be a good thing. Then she asked me what to do coz pretending not to know is pretty hard and painful.

I just wanted to say darling I know exactly how you feel right now but I didn't. I wished that I had the power to persuade her to calm down and believe that everything's gonna be ok but I know it's not as easy as eating a piece of cheese cake...and I know that if I had the power, the first person I was gonna use it to was myself! Brrrrr.

So to answer her questions such like what to do, and will he come back to me or shall I leave him, etc. I said what do you feel like doing now is the most important thing. Coz if they really had something, it's not about him but 100 percently about YOU to make a decision. 'Don't worry  too much about his feelings, focus on what you want.'

...Well again I surprised myself, I almost felt funny that I sound like a mature shit but this is something I'd never say two years ago before I had a relationship! I realized that I had learned pretty much through my only relationship and I'm using those to 'consult' people already, how can I not be surprised? ...'Do you want to 1) still be with him even he is having an affair or 2) leave him immediately or 3) try to be with him if he stopped what he's doing now and comes back to you? or 4) none of the above?' She thot for a while and said that she needed more time...but she would probably pretend she doesn't know for a little while.

Yesterday when I saw her at the office, she was calling her bf daling on the fone and said she's going to get some Chinese food for him on the way home and kisses back and all that jazz...Seems that she's doing pretty well. She told me she had thought about those options and decided that as long as he still cares about her, she's gonna pretend nothing had happened and she found out that he is actually treating her better than before. Anyway that's her decision and as her friend, I'm just happy for her. Coz instead of panicing, she chose to be wise and picked up one road, stepped onto it and doen't seem that she'll regret one day for what she's doing now.

So guess that ends my 'consulting' story now and I have to go coz I have an appointment with myself...Oh, before I go, I just wanna warn those who cheat in their relationships, especially people living in Japan who have handy phones with EXTREMELY advanced e-mail system that:' DON'T EVER LEAVE YOUR PHONE IN YOUR PANTS POCKET EVEN WHEN YOU GO TAKE A SHOWER!' Ha!

(P.S. I've been away from Xanga for so long and I have to face my finals in two weeks. I'll keep writing, but can't promise everyday... BTW just repaired all the fotos, so sorry for making such a mess. So pleeeeease scroll down and have a look, ne!:)

[#28] All You Can Eat

After spending a few hours watching AbFab (Absolutely Fabulous) with Haychan and Loren today, we decided to hang out with some gorgeous friends and have a Tabehodai -- 'all you can eat' dinner, during which we couldn't get off the topic about whether pig foot should be served as food or not...for GOD's sake it's a Chinese restaurant!!! Anyway, Loren finally got to meet Takako, our favorite gal and had a nice time together, obviously.